Devotional

A God of Rest

Matthew 11:28-30
New International Version
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

1Kings 19

3 Elijah was afraid and ran for his life. When he came to Beersheba in Judah, he left his servant there, 4 while he himself went a day’s journey into the wilderness. He came to a broom bush, sat down under it and prayed that he might die. “I have had enough, LORD,” he said. “Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.”

Christian culture tends to teach us to hide any emotions that are considered negative and never show that you are struggling. Never question God. If you are depressed and suicidal you either aren’t really a Christian or aren’t praying hard enough.

If we look at many stories of the bible we find that these ideals just aren’t true. God tells us to bring our problems to him. Not just the socially acceptable problems of a Christian. Bring him the messiness of your anxiety and the heavy darkness of your depression, just as Elijah did. God didn’t chastise him for being honest about the emotional state he was in. God took care of him and brought him comfort and strength.

God did not create an army of unfeeling robots. He knows we are humans and that we struggle in a fallen world. Unaddressed wounds cannot be healed. Our physician cannot bind up wounds that we refuse to show him. Scripture tells us that God is close to the brokenhearted. He doesn’t flinch at our fallibility. He is not disappointed in our confusion or when we are overwhelmed. He has such an intense desire to connect with us and carry us through the hard times that he sacrificed his son, so that the veil could be torn and nothing could separate us from his comforting loving presence.

Run to him. He is waiting with open arms.

I am a writer and an ordained minister. I grew in very toxic environments. After prolonged intensive abuse I now have C-PTSD. I have overcome so many obstacles and been able to heal and grow by facing my past and processing it in a healthy way. I am still a work in progress but I have come farther than I ever thought would be possible.

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